1963 (note: clean drawing table)

sometimes I wonder, wouldn't it be so much simpler if people would be more forgiving of others. Things in your life don't always go the way you want it to - but do you have to get angry? Must you project your frustration onto others? There's nothing you can do to change the ones you love.
YOU ONLY CAUSE PAIN.
A friend of mine taught me this. I won't forget that emotion. Won't be able to forgive myself...

{It was January, 1963 When Johnny came home with a gift for me
He said I bought it for you because I love you & I bought it for you because it’s your birthday, too;
He was so very nice, he was so very kind- To think of me at this point in time.
I used to think of him, he used think of me...
He told me to close my eyes - My gift would be a great surprise - I saw tears were in his eyes;
He never meant to hurt me "Oh, god, Johnny", don’t point that gun at me -
There’s so many ways our lives have changed, but please, I beg, don’t do this to me
Johnny, don’t point that gun at me. Can I save my life at any price?
For god’s sake won’t you listen to me?

And though he was ashamed that he had took a life, Johnny came home with another wife
And he often remembered how it used to be, before that special occasion, 1963
There was too many ways that you could kill someone - Like in a love affair, when the love is gone;
He told me to close my eyes, my gift would be a great surprise
I saw hatred in his eyes, but he never meant to hurt me
"Oh! GOD, Johnny", don’t point that gun at me, there’s so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don’t do this to me, Johnny, you keep on using me;
Can I change my life for any price? Oh, johnny, won’t you listen to me?

Oh, johnny, do you miss me?
I just want to feel FREE
I will always feel FREE...}
-NEW ORDER

TRAPPED IN THE 80s
-Listening to this song tonight, I thought, hey this is GODDAMN "Tensai and Z" that I want to write (I guess it was just quite simply subliminal osmossis from listening to NEW ORDER - esp while writing purple...)