A lonely Sunday Afternoon

I am definitely spending TOO MUCH money on games lately >_<
this just came in the mail today...

• KOF 2003 (Neo Geo)
  
• Samurai Spirits 5 (PS2)
  
• BERSERK!! (PS2)
  

...and here I was thinking this weekend would SUCK because I won't have internet connection temporarily at home : D "FEEL THE POWER OF PLAYSTATION!"

it started in 1994

I remember the first time I saw King of Fighters 94... Looking for an alternative to Street Fighter I totally adored this new battle sytem from the creators of Samurai Shodown. In the progressive mission.. "cannot turn back time, but I will make the past and future the same!"

LOOK WHAT I GOT IN THE MAIL TODAY! I tell you tho I have been spending too much money on GAMES lately (even slowed down with my knife collection).


I also played ART OF FIGHTING yesterday... and realized that KING'S restaurant is actually called L'AMOR (L'Amour?) quite fitting! (I guess I have to edit the name LA BIJOUX on COLOUR PURPLE) : p

DAKARA DOU SHITA?!? (SO WHAT?!)

OTOKO WA TSURAI - sou da yo naa...

I was supposed to continue packing for my move tonight but I made the 'mistake' of ordering pizza and watching the ASHITA NO JOE movie 2. It's a dated 70s anime, but I can't help but love it. It was a very vocal, shaking BAWLING - OH DA TEARS night for me ;_;.

ASHITA no JOE has shaped the lives of two generations and [tonight] I think it just influenced a third. There is nothing more BEAUTIFUL and GODLY than seeing and believing in something that can withstand the test of time. In an Anime era of bouncing breasts, candy cane voices, big glassy eyes and pathetically nonesense gun toting girls - I am glad to see that in 1969 there were PSYCHO SHONEN in the world.

PERFECT - JUST PERFECT
up to the very very end...

I can now FULLY understand the cameo quote one might hear in many TRUE shonen anime "He keeps on getting up.. HE'S LIKE YABUKI JOE!!!" (everyone who's anyone in the Shonen world has definitely been influenced by this anime.. if not then he's fuckin' CRAP : p - note Joe's cap and Kuujou Joutarou (from JoJo's bizarre Adventures WW2 boy cap... JoJo x "Joe" coincidence???)

I believe this anime is TOP on the list of one of the best SHONEN ANIME of all time.. but that's just me.
I have to wash my face cause it's caked with dried up tears.. it's kinda pathetic and I think many common anime fans might laugh at me but I just can't help it.

ANYONE who wants to know what a hardcore Pshonen is all about has GOT to watch Joe.

a good way to start the day...

Today I brought the following items to my parents' new house..
1. a big sack of rice.
2. rock salt.
3. soy sauce.
4. sugar.
5. cooking oil.
...apparently it is good fung sui. ^_^ and tells you the cornerstones of a wonderful Chinese household.. I'd bring LuLu in today but I am not realy moving in yet... I will have her own ceremony, once the shop and sniper's nest is finished construction... that and I was able to actually wake up and run. Good way to start the day. I was teeter tottering today and felt kind of weak both physically and emotionally.. until I read this very interestig article.

(if you're vehemently anti gun don't bother reading it - then again I can't imagine why any lovers of furry woodland creatures would visit PBA.com : p ok ok ok... except penguins they're cute and fluffy and not from woodlands! So yes you can love them! ^__^)

God Bless America

everybody wants to rule the world...

"something happens, and I 'm head over heels..."

One thing that stands out during my teenage years, (like everyone else I am sure) was that I couldn't wait to die. To graduate, to find work, get married, have kids, die, and all that while not being good enough to amount to anything (and I still can't play the piano) as I was criticized mercilessly by my teachers and family.

I never understood people when they said,
"Life's always tough, but there's more to life than that..."
I thought they were crazy - Today it was raining. Ame ga futteimashita...

RAIN OR SHINE; Sniperboy will be there.



Today I took out T's custom bullets (reloads) that he gave to me as a gift : ) thanks bud. I was FINALLY able to break my 1.25" group. if you notice the pic above.. those are supposed to be FIVE bulletholes. If you ignore the guy on the left (I dunno what happened.. T's fault!! He must have put a faulty bullet in there ^_- ) the group in question is (if I may be liberal : p) is around 5/8" to 1/4" GROUP! This is the best I have shot EVAAAR!! (yeah I am a late bloomer but bear with me now)

So the "big" hole has had 4 bullets pass thru it... if you want to know how big a hole a .308 165 grain hollow point makes, then examine my buddy on the left. That is exactly one hole. Then imagine fitting that hole in the party at the right.

(Ok I know my other shooting buddies if they are reading this are laughing at my shallowness, but bear with me here.. I feel like a grade school kid who just saw his first porno mag.)

LULU!!!! I LABU YOU!! T!!! I RABU YOUUUU!!!

. . .

In the rain today, I also lost control of my tires and swerved in a tight turn I haven't taken at that speed before (accidentally). By some dumb luck, the guy next to me turned VERY wide.. either purposely or not who knows.
I thought I was going to die for sure as I heard my rear tires start to skid and I started drifting one lane over.

Thank goodness for my excessive training in Gran Turismo and Initial D (tho you might say that, this was what got me in this mess to begin with)... I didn't panic (tho my eyeballs leapt to the side trying to see the truck next to me) all I could hear in my mind was "DEKINEE! ONEGAI, SPIN JYA NIGETE!!" then "COUNTER-STEER YOU IDIOT!"

OK so I am a loser and a geek but this has never happened to me before cause I was a good kid : p.
I thought I was going to DIE. But in a sick kind to way, having felt the experience of losing traction, I was one, glad that I am alive; two, glad to have lived long enough to feel this sensation, and three, I don't want to die YET because I hopefully want to feel that again (not in traffic tho : p)

today was a day of new accomplishments and new experiences
some people are sad today, some people are happy today. I am me, and tomorrow is another day. : D

867-5309

hopelessly trapped in the 80s

I listened the whole song for the first time tonight. I am such a geek, but I can't help but love it and wonder why i haven't listened to it before ; )

for dreams to come true; it begins with simply this -
this is a HOOK, and a Lazy Sunday Afternoon...
Maybe I should try making a marker page for [TENSAI & Z] to get me going.. before I draw a makoto Udeshii portrait to get the MRB Chara page going ; )

"if you HURT my friend, again..."

I SWEAR, I'll KILL YOU...

: p I snipped ENDLESS CHAIN again (section 02 pretty much) , to streamline the story... I think this is how I want the story to progress this "early on".. More hatable Ralf : } and less flashbacks.. one added scene, which I came up with. It's been a while since I've come up with a new twist in a story and I think I like it. (tho the title AMERICAN DOGFIGHTER might change.. but maybe not...)

Oyasumi...

Musical take along Snowman : )

I got literally a TOWER of goodies today ^_^ so happy. I think I am officially insane now.. here is the lowdown...
-2 new Neo Geo games *_* oh no.. oh no!!!
-two snowmen (one is a musical Snowman that you pull on and it plays a tune!)
-That and T made me some custom reloads
(I will dress them up in little clothes and make a shrine for them!!)

[Raison D'Etre]

the reason for [being]

I am in the process of uploading a familiar feeling, a sweet familiar memory.
THE COLOUR PURPLE 12 - ENDLESS CHAIN.
I think this is how I wanted this chapter to pace from the beginning. Finally as well, I think I have discovered Rugal's ultimate purpose in life. Hooray hooray! : D

Tomorrow I will accept a new child, a Springfield Armory M1A, semi-automatic .308 match combat rifle. I think I will name her 'VENGEFULL MARIA'.

Out of Body Experience

Tonight was my/a bi-annual "Nattou" eating ceremony (there were even taiko drums in th background I think, or maybe it was me going into shock.). I really don't like the stuff but my pride wants me to like it so I can have the title of "can eat anything, under heaven"!!! (ugh, I think my hearing is actually going on and off as I type as an after effect >_<).

To make the long story short I had some tonight at YUME Sushi Bar. (Hide-san seemed very sadistically happy when making the webby slimey coagulous concoction.)

To say the least, when i ate it (and finished 4 out of 6 rolls) I felt my entire midsection just go into shock. All the muscles in my torso just tensed up instantaneously. I guess it is somewhat like an orgasm.. or having your stomach cut open and being disemboweled.

Trying to focus and not faint from the emotional and physical stress was an experience.

I can't wait to do it again in 6 months : }

SO WHAT IF YOU'RE UPSET!?!

STAND UP! The world doesn't revolve around you, darlin'!

-I feel better today : ), I think it was the nice Korean binge I had during lunch.

You've got a lot to learn B4U beat me...

"TRY AGAIN, KID!"

"What Strength!! But don't forget there are many guys like you all over the world... I wish you good luck!"
-STREET FIGHTER 1

Not a very happy day.. but hey, if all days were good then we would be gyad.. and if that were so, what meaning would there be? it seems that T had a worse day than me.. maybe it is in the stars >_< It's a Chinese thought - but modified for [Psycho Shonen], luck and sorrow come in waves - no matter how great you are, you will never prevail. So if the day is good, bet high and have no fear, if the day is bad, then the best you can do is [sleep] and wait for tomorrow... because sorrow will never follow you in darkness...


Oyasumi, shyougkun...

let's dance, buddy!!!

For some reason I am feeling rather happy today (strange), so instead of doing projects I have to do (but ofcourse, will enjoy ^_^) I thought to stop and sidetrack (again) and, start up a GET WELL SOON card for my buddy who thought his 80 year old ass was still 30
; ) - but he enjoys my art for some unknown reason so I forgive him!!!




ONCE UPON A TIME, THERE WAS A NICE BOY WHO DIED,
BEFORE HIS HEART COULD BE EVER BROKEN. -T&Z2004

baby girls are ALWAYS beautiful

"S, no matter how horrible your day might've been,..."
A smile from a pretty lady always makes it OK... (JIM)

I just got in my new baby girl in yesterday and amidst my infatuation with RETURNER, I forgot to give her the time in the spotlight. I don't have a name for her yet but in the running is "Leng Fa" (a nice Cantonese name from PBA I liked (tho dunno of its authenticity or practicality) meaning "beautiful flower"), or Athena, or Venus (JUSTICE or LOVE - its always been an OBSESSIVE infatuation for me with these two gods).

I haven't shot her yet but its an awesome piece I want to take her to the gym with me and run with strapped to my back : ) yeah I know, I am sick and twisted.. but man maybe I can be a "mall ninja" for a bit more.. nothing is more sick than looking thru the scope of your new rifle, looking at your target.. breathing calmly, looking at your target , running your hand along your rifle then saying "Oh, I love you. I love you so much." (OK... I hope I am not as bad as those idiots who think the definition of SNIPER = TERRORIST. You can insult "Long range 'space boy' precision shooter" all day long, but NOT, NEVER "Sniper".

OK enough of that : ) - the boys at SnipeRanch, CA are very happy now that they each have their own rifle. Great commander S-Class (Snowman) and Great commander A-Class (Peng Peng) are very happy.

went to a new range today and it was AWESOME. Lots of exotic rifles you cannot import anymore into Kalifornia Kommunist Khurch : ) fresh air and a nice atmosphere. I checked my logbook and its been TWO FRICKIN MONTHS since I shot LULU that is NOT cool.. My groups were bleah.. but I need to go to the new range more.. its got a cool (and VERY wicked) twisty mountain pass I have to get thru.. I am not an outdoorsy person but can appreciate the secluded charm of it.

SOME TECH NOTES
-I need to one day fit a new HEAVY barrel to LULU. Prolly a MIKE ROCK per T's specs, that has an appropriate twist rate that will like to eat 175 grain .308 bullets. (I need to find a good 200 yard range.. the range I went to only had 100 yards and I was too excited to ask if they had 200. I have heard of another range called METCALFE that has a "Kommunist Khurch Members only" 200 yard range open to LEO (Law Enorcement Officeres) & Members only, but is open one Sunday each month to the public. *_*

-next gun HAS to be a SAKO TRG (so space gun, and I can dress like a senile fatigue wearing 50 year old next time I go there ^_- OH MY dumb brothers woudl worship me but screw them, this rifle is just so badass!!!) or LONGBOW!!! 1 MILE CLUB hoorah!!! Touch them, make evil feel alright.

-I am still at odds what to call my new baby girl.. I know its not proper to talk about a lady's weight, but my inaccurate scale weighs her in a whole (on the dot) 5 pounds lighter than LuLu (without a sling on L). pretty good.. I am thinking of ways to lighten her up at the same time to heavy up LuLu. Not really the best way to regard some beautiful ladies in your life.. but hey I love them both : )

"To remember the past and hope for the future, in order to accomplish this we must love & respect our God given - yet man made tools." there must be a reason we continue to be we are... : )

YATTO AETTA NA

"SO WE FINALLY MEET..."
ULTRA PLAY GUN DANCING ACTION

I'm watching RETURNER now.
OH! GREAT!!! KANESHIRO-SAMA *_*
I want to be as beautiful as you!!!



So far the movie looks good.. very high speed, low impact (as far as philosophy or wanna be philosophy) story. Nice dancing and Pirouhettes (sp?) - and FINALLy yes, what American Movies fail to understand is that there are intelligent gun fans watching gun dancing movies.. and yes, semi-automatic pistols SLIDE LOCK back when empty
: D

"that is 'El Dente'"
this is the middle of the film

OH MY GOD!! SO OH DA TEARS! ;_;
(maybe I am just a simple schmuck. I will try this hairstyle.. maybe?)
One thing tho.. why in Japanese movies they have BAD white actors who just can't act or somehow speak in ENGRISH?
That's my new Dream.. To be an action dance actor (maybe it will help my manga artist career? ^_^ I need to move to a place with no Asians.. maybe South Dakota?)

I never was a fan, I was always a fan... anachronisticalazoid gun dance action (with love pasta). Anyone who says this movie SUCKS is a fricking poopyhead!!

ATO DE MAKASETA NA, AIBOU...
"The rest is up to you, buddy."

Beautiful beautiful hero boy;
Slimey gold hair yakuza bad guy;
Fly away hair cute lady; (love the hair)
(which is saying a lot, re: opinion on asian women)

If you believe in [Cyber Western]
Then you must belive in [Cyber John Woo]

Sci-fi is only good when you belive its happening.
I hate Sci-Fi...

"without guns, what good are you?"
THIS IS A [PERFECT FILM]
~fini~

no regrets

good night. welcome dreamland...

IF YOU [CAN] FLY,

THEN I CAN FLY [TOO]



"The best way to judge a man'a character is to see what he does when he thinks no one is looking. No man, for any considrable period, can wear one face to himself, and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be true." -???
this is just another scene that needed to be drawn before I die...

--urrrggg.. I think I conjugated TOBERARERU wrongly >_<.

welcome back, old friend...

trapped in fear & pain in the [darkness] - even when he screamed "HELP ME!" noone came... Then he realized, that he had to be free by his own power, because the world would not pity him.
THEN THE VOICES CAME
Do not fear the darkness... because it will always follows behind you, for the rest of your days, boy.

Time to do the MRB chara page... one day (as soon as I get a hold of all this packing & moving crap.

scary-pan!!!

another episode of THE SMILING ASIAN BOY

I had quite a scare yesterday morning '_' !!
I get a call from the good folks at "big brother's" saying that there is a problem and that one of my "numbers" was expired. I ofcourse froze and panicked --- however, knowing that it would be improbable for me to be deported since everything was in order I just needed to make sure that my I-XX was not expired or else I won't be able to take delivery of my new counter sniper rifle *_* oh good lord was I sweating.

The good old girl called me back tho saying that "There was an error, you're absolutely OK." now believe it or not, I love the CA DOJ : ) they are nice people, and very helpful and friendly (you'd think that they'd be gun grabbing gestappo but my experience has always been otherwise).

I told her "Dayum, Miss, you owe me lunch for spazzing me out and messing up my morning (laughs)." They are good sports too ^_^.

it's been a while since I felt a total chill like that.. it beats any drug - but man I dont want to go thru one of those anytime again soon.

be very carefull...

that Chinese kid isn't so well in the head...


TODAY'S DREAM TEAM



MOST NOSTALGIC MOMENT
Kusanagi's classic 7 hit combo

CAN'T HELP IT
I am totally-totally INFATUATED with vanessa's chara design '_'
everytime I see it I want to spasm on the floor, bite into someone's neck & rip it apart.

CABLE-SAMAAAAAAA!

it's wonderful to welcome the past sometimes...
- So much for a productive evening : ) - NEO GEO CaaaaaABLE!

- I think I find myself spending too much time on KOF2002 practice mode to get the combos right.

- I now remember what turned me off on KOF99.. lack of advancement in graphics, but maybe I am crazy but I thought KOF98 had better graphics than anything afterwards?

- KOF02 seems to lack fluidity of say.. SVC chaos or 98. I still remeber going to Hong Kong and being utterly defeated by those 4 hit combos, which seems harder to do in 02; but man I really had a good time when I had my internship - after work, going to an arcade with a loose tie on my neck salaryman style was awesome.

- IORI, VICE and MATURE return!!! HOORAY!!

- MUST PRACTICE COMBOS - DEFEAT ALL MONSTERS!

when I was young I was afraid to get glasses

because I was afraid my parents would hit me for being so weak at such a young age...



I don't know why, but I want to keep it warm;
I don't know why, but I want to keep it warm forever...

a boy has to be [taught] how to hold a pencil;
he has to be taught how to debate;
he has to be taught to cultivate his mind
and to fight battles with his mouth...
but ironically, a boy never needs to be taught how to hold a gun - and when a boy holds a gun, [sorrow] will inevitably follow him, for the rest of his days...

"[Boy], you're not the only tragic hero."

7000 hit!!!

ARIGATOU, shokgun!

the meaning of life, [IKIGAI]

Humans are weak, and they are mortal. Is the meaning of life, just to [watch]? Just to live as long as you can to see how the world will evolve in your lifetime? Does it mean that all humans live only to observe where the world will end up, and see how they can influence that?

My father asked me, "Kid, why do you collect guns? It's a bad investment , and quite frankly, a waste of money..."

As if I had waited my whole life to answer him, my voice didn't shake, and I replied; "Pa, it makes me happy. Isn't that enough?"

I scarcely ever see the scene, but for once he seemed to grow silent, and respect my response.

...so I wonder what I would say when a man says to me "Why do you love guns? They have no practical purpose in this world?"
An emotional answer; a biological answer; a historical answer; a calculated answer, each would not be complete enough to hold true in all situations... but once again, I am reminded of myself when I was 13 years old. Of a simple, yet often ridiculed emotion I discovered then.

"I love them, because... Because, holding them as an extension of my mortal body, and using them, firing that bullet and driving [it] PERFECTLY into a target. It is the only thing I can do well in this world. Even when ridiculed, feared, and loathed by society, it is the only talent that makes me an individual, it is the only talent I believe that gives me a purpose in life.

Even if ridiculed and ostracized by society, this is [my] world, and my skill, and I can't help but cherish it."

In fact, isn't this what life is all about???

HISTORY WILL ALWAYS REPEAT

write everything down - it won't guarantee that history will not repeat itself, but it's the only way you can remember to be true to your dreams...


~~*~~
"You do me a great service, Mein Freund."
~~*~~

I put my hands together, the left capping my right fist, and smugly I let them hover just under my chin as I looked to the right, away from his eyes. A pool of mixed emotions rolled in my mind. Once calm, now a raging whirlpool of torment and misery. I looked to the right, as if talking to myself I said "Yes, I did it." to answer his question to me...

"I see..." he said in what could only express some obvious fear, but more so, it was a tone of disappointment.

I sat squatted on the ground, as I always have, maybe much like a frog, balancing my upper body only by the sheer strength of my calves, the back of my thighs were touching the back of those calves. It was comfortable for me. Incredibly, wonderfully comfortable.

I refused to look back, but I did anyway. When i saw his face, my confusion and uncertainty was immediately replaced by defiance, by rage.. a swirling whirlpool of anger and hatred. How dare he stand there so proper and right, standing over me, judging me with those eyes, making me feel inferior to him. The self eating rancor drove its teeth into my heart and wanted me to scream. How DARE you make me feel guilty; HOW DARE you expect me to follow your rules; HOW DARE YOU manipulate me. Who are [YOU], you who think that you can JUDGE ME and tell me what's right?

I could stand up and kill you right now, I don't have to justify anything, and you would fall.

My mental spasms and self interrogation was cut short when he looked at me with a blank stare. It wasn't a condescending stare, it wasn't an angry stare. It was just a simple visage that said, "What's that look?" he said as he faced me and I faced him.

I tilted my head to the side again in frustration. I didn't want to explain the anger in my heart, and I didn't feel like I needed to justify my actions when 'I did [it].' So instead, I said to him, inquisitively, calmly, "What does it look like?"

he replied...

"It looked like [sadness], your majesty."
~~*~~

change the world, BOY!

before the world changes YOU!


-IT'S HERE! MY OWN SOUNDTRACK!
-My cables didn't come in today : ( fricking frickety frick! BUT I did get my Blackwood Skirmish GOLD and a new Surefire foreend for my shotgun ; )

DORE-SECUWALLPAPER@WORK
-Thanks T. (B&S ROADSHOW) : D --yeah you can cool at work too!!